I fell in love

I fell in love.

Not the kind of love that fades, not the kind that leaves you empty after it’s gone. This love had been waiting for me, patient and unwavering. He had known me all my life—through every season, through every wrong turn, through every time I thought I had ruined my chances of ever being worthy of it. And still, He loved me.

When I gave my heart away to people who couldn’t hold it, when I had children, when I got married, when I lost myself in love that was never meant to last—He was there. Steady. Present. Even when I ignored Him, even when I only whispered His name in passing, just to make sure He was still near. And then, I would return to what I thought love was.

By 2024, I had given up on love. I told myself I had felt all it had to offer, that maybe love had given up on me too. But His love never left. It was hard for me to receive, not because it wasn’t there, but because I had been broken by everything I tried to replace it with.

But He never let me go. Not when I abandoned myself. Not when I let heartbreak define me. Not when isolation made me question if I was even worth loving. He stayed. Sometimes quiet, sometimes just a whisper in my spirit, but always loud in His lpresence.

And without even realizing it, the moment I let go, the moment I stopped running, the moment I finally accepted Him—there was peace.

The love I had been searching for, the love I had been aching for, had been here all along. It was never in the arms I chased, never in the validation I craved. It was always in Him. And this time, I knew.

song: found a love by 7 hills worship